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Last week

on 04/16/2014

Note: I wrote this Sunday late and didn’t get a chance to post it earlier so pretend it’s Monday morning and your reading this ok? Ok!

Well this past week has been exciting it started last weekend when my husband and I went all the way down to Scottdale about 30 minutes from my house to go to the  Southwest beer festival and as we’re looking for parking I realize we were a week early.  Completely my fault I truly thought it was last weekend but we still went today. 
Monday thru Thursday we had stupid AIMS TESTING  I swear I’ve not meet one person who actually doesn’t dread this particular week of the year for their children.  My son “D” doesn’t get stressed out ever. He is one of those seriously chill people but this week he was a constant ball of nerves.  He did say last year’s  6th grade AIMS was much harder than 7th was but he’s said he did fine on reading but he reads like I do so I’m not worried about reading. Math on the other hand is hard for him he just can’t seem to understand the geometry which is something I had huge problems with back in my school days. I don’t know how to fix this and the math teacher doesn’t seem to be willing to stay after or help during lunch. This is ongoing. I truly thankful that my daughter didn’t have any additional AIMS this year as a senior although she did have to retake math twice to make her “eligible for graduating” but she passed finally back in november.  Tuesday my husband decided to start riding his motorcycle to work for the first time which caused me lots of xanex moments.  He had to text me when he got to work, when he left work and if he stopped anywhere too.  That helps a lot. He’s become so responsible in the last 6 years since he got am instant family so I know in my head he’s fine but that never stopped the crazy before so why start now.  Wednesday thru Friday I kinda took it easy but did finish the bathroom spring clean. It took three freaking days.  We’ve only lived here a year and the bathroom gets wiped down weekly!  This week I’m starting on the bedroom.  I’m totally taking pictures of this because for the year we’ve lived here we have never bothered finishing that room.  We just sleep there.  

Saturday hubs was off for the first time that he didn’t have to request
We found out too late to do anything about it unfortunatly but he went to guys night so I ran over to Kohls across the street and bought a skort. I have always loved skorts because I don’t like the naked feeling of skirts. Now normally I hate clothes shopping but since I just got an adorable shirt at Ross I needed something cute for “date night” Ams for the last two years I’ve been a plus size 20. This week I fit into a size 16 skort. No shit I skipped out of the dressing room!  4 sizes without noticing. How dumb am I!?! Now I didn’t get to wear my skort because it was too windy but the beer festival we went to today was pretty cool.  Since I can’t do events like this without the wheelchair we normally don’t do these type of events but since my insurance paid for a motorized scooter we finally get to do interesting events like this. We were given a 4 oz mug and each ticket (worth a dollar) bought us a fill up.  I got to try a bunch of local beers and a few more craft beers.  We only bought a few tickets each to drink with because I don’t enjoy drinking alcohol like I used to but I love to try new flavors.  I wish I found a chocolate beer there I’ve been seeing them a lot of other places but won’t buy any because I’m afraid ill hate it.  I did find out any beer that says  “ipa” means Pine tree and that’s one beverage besides gin that will cause me to never drink again.  Maybe not a bad idea.  Overall pain was minimal this week outside of the bathroom cleaning. The new medication in my pump is fantastic granted the marijuana is making a huge difference in the side effects from some of the necessary medication I’m on.  I’m honestly loving life right now which is a nice change.  I have noticed something though and I’m kinda stumped as to how to handle this hopefully someone’s comment will help me.  Here’s my issue;  I’ve previously told everyone about my depression starting back in November but the first day Arizona hit 85°is like it’s vanished.  I magically have energy that wasn’t there two weeks ago.  Sounds like seasonal affective disorder right? This is the definition I pulled off
Seasonal affective disorder (also called SAD) is a type of depression that occurs at the same time every year. If you’re like most people with seasonal affective disorder, your symptoms start in the fall and may continue into the winter months, sapping your energy and making you feel moody. Less often, seasonal affective disorder causes depression in the spring or early summer.

Treatment for seasonal affective disorder includes light therapy (phototherapy), psychotherapy and medications.
Exactly right?  I still spend most of my life in my back yard so I know light therapy doesn’t work for me.  I am not ready to start adding new medications to my life.  I just got off a bunch dammit! Anyway what do yout think? Since its gone I won’t need medication now but maybe next winter I will.  I hope I won’t.  We know depression goes hand in hand with a chronic disease but I’ve managed to keep that to manageable levels without more medication.  One day there will be a shot and I’ll be happy to be a guinea pig for that if I need to.  This is getting wayyy too long. I think I’m going to TRY to post more than once a week. Hope everyone had a beautiful weekend and that your week is filed with sunshine and warm weather.  After the winter the rest of you had I think your deserving.  Today we hit 85 and it was a little windy but perfect.  I’m also working in adding pictures but I haven’t dumped the memory card from my old phone and I haven’t taken any with the new phone. 


5 responses to “Last week

  1. MeglyMc says:

    Feckin’ AIMS. I hate that goddamn thing…both as a parent AND a teacher. Nothing like forcing kids to deal for an entire week under highstakes testing, and expecting them not to implode. They should let the teachers get drunk after…and the kids.

    • Renee says:

      I completely agree. Then my son’s school pulled no snacks no gum no liquid during food outside lunch. OK dehydrate the kids during these tests and see how many kids fail. They need the snack. Even a second of doing something else usually ends up with them refocusing and doing better. I’m terrified of these new tests. My daughter couldn’t graduate hs until she passed. What the hell is the new testing going to fix the last one didn’t? Yes you should completely be allowed to hide vodka in your lemonade during testing. I’m sure it’s just as bad watching the kids you adore stress struggle and worry X 30 or how many you have. I don’t drink often but I sure thought about it every night that week

      • MeglyMc says:

        Um…that’s BS. I fed those kids during the entire test. There were Jolly Ranchers flying everywhere. There’s evidence to support it, even. RIDICULOUS.

      • Renee says:

        I completely agree. This is a new school for us. I still haven’t gotten a good reason as to why they were left hungry. I’ve seen the evidence and always do a snack trip for each kids favorites during aims just to get them through it. Major fail this year!

      • MeglyMc says:

        They’l find out in June when their numbers come in… Ugh.

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